regret the NEVER that i EVER

When life involving any dilemma situation, one decision and one pathway among the diverge branches must be choosen. No one knows which is correct which is wrong, how worse the wrong will be brought forward or will it bring to disaster? Sometimes, you did endless bad things to cover your single mistake as a black stain will never be pure white forever. Nevertheless experience and our instinct are the major decision maker besides rationality.

When we fail, its true to be optimistic sometimes but when life always goes beyond our expectation and when emotion control our rationality we might do something which is beyond our control. If this really happened, regret is the only word describe that all.

I'm not being emo ok. Its just a synopsis deduce from the movie EU aka Emergency Unit! A Hong Kong Drama Series talking about Crimes and Police. =) Just finished watching the whole drama in two days...Love it (thumbs up)

During my one month study period for my exam, a lot of thing comes to my mind besides studying. I reflected what i had done and regret what i did do do.

I ever spend HUNDREDS over buying my stuff but i never bother donated even a FIFTY notes to the charity.

I ever complain about my FOOD but i never think i should be GRATEFUL for not being famine.

I ever being too MESMERIZED in studying but never think of what HAPPENING surrounding.

I ever BUY a lots of cloths but never thing of the PROBABILITY to wear them on any occasion.

I ever GOSSIP about my friends but never thought of i HATE people gossiping about me.

I ever SCOLD my parents but never SORRY to them.

I ever HIT my own brother but never feel REGRET.

I ever being DEPRESSED about loneliness but i never APPRECIATE that my friends are always be there for me.

I ever thought of RUNNING away from my home but i never thought of how MY LOVES ones will be hurt.

I ever set in the mood of SLEEPLESS night but i never thought of having EYEBAGS are horrible.

I ever CRITICIZED people weakness but never REALIZED i'm having it.

I ever MAKE FUN of people but never thought of how would i FEEL when i'm that person.

I ever BLAMED the fate of not being pretty but i never thought of how LUCKY am i for being perfectly normal without any born defect.

I ever being BOASTFUL but never thought of how would DISGUSTED it is if i'm that listener.

I ever learn a lot of LESSON from my mistake but i never go to REMEMBER it and i even repeat it.
(Those who never remember the past will condemn to repeat it: quote from 2006 Sejarah Text Book)

Should i never do the ever again to avoid regretting the never? But like i say, sometimes we just did it without our conscious. In conclusion this is an unavoidable BAD HABIT ! We could be a better person if we determine to change and reflect the past = STUDY HISTORY lor......... =D